For my sister. (I miss you both)

Well I miss my mother
And I miss being her son
As crazy as I was I
Guess I wasn't much of one
Sometimes I miss her so much,
I want to hop on the next jet
And I get lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet
And I love my sister
Lord knows how I've missed her
She loves me
And she knows I won't forget
And sometimes I get jealous
Of all her little pets
And I get lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet

I roll over in bed
Looking for someone to touch
There's a girl that I know of
But don't ask for much
She's homely, and she's cranky
And her hair's in a net
And I'm lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet

Are you my friend when I need one
I need someone to be one
I take anybody I can get
And sometimes I wanna call you
And I feel like a pet
And I'm lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet

I go down to the river
Filled with regret
I go down and I wonder
If there was any reason left
I left just before my lungs could get wet
I'm lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet

And I love my sister
Lord knows how I've missed her
She loves me
And she knows I won't forget
And sometimes I get jealous
Of all her little pets
And I get lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet
Yeah I get lonely, but I ain't that lonely yet

The Blues

When two forces collide. There are no two greater, passionate voices than Ed Vedder & Robert Plant. I live everyday inspired by their honesty.

New Day

Today is a new day & yesterday is a memory. I'll start again. I'll begin again.

Lost

I don't laugh like others laugh. I don't see like others see. Look around I feel broken. I am me.

Love Interruption

I want loveTo roll me over slowlystick a knife inside me,and twist it all around.
I want love tograb my fingers gentlyslam them in a doorwayput my face into the ground.
I want love tomurder my own motherand take her off to somewherelike hell or up above.
I want love tochange my friends to enemies,change my friends to enemiesand show me how it's all my fault.
I wont let love disrupt, corrupt or interrupt me x 2Yeah I wont let love disrupt, corrupt, or interrupt me anymore.
I want love towalk right up and bite megrab a hold of me and fight meleave me dying on the ground.
And I want love tosplit my mouth wide open andcover up my ears,and never let me hear a sound.
I want love to,forget that you offended meor how you have defended me,when everybody tore me down.

Out In The Cold

When you're ready I'm not there

When you're needy I'm not there

When it most matters I'm not there

When it matters most they are there

When I'm hurting I know you care

Is this how you felt when I left you bare

I never meant to scar or disappear

Only motivated by my own fear

Selfish as it was we're now both scarred

Irreparable damage

We are who we are 

Bright Eyes

Your look of innocence devours the sounds

In search of what surrounds

Inspire me to inspire you 

I think you see me better than most do

That frightens me but I'm always there

Little that you are, I'm more aware

Never change

Pictures Of Me

Start stop and start
Stupid acting smart
Flirting with the flicks
You say it's just for kicks
You'll be the victim of your own dirty tricks
You got yourself to tease and displease

Doors swinging wide
You walked in to hide
Looking at your feet
Failure's complete
Saw you and me on the coin-op TV
Frozen in fear every time we appear

I'm not surprised at all and really, why should I be?
See nothing wrong
See nothing wrong
I'm so sick and tired of all these pictures of me
Completely wrong
Totally wrong

You go walking by
Here come another guy
Jailer who sells
Personal hells
Who'd like to see me down on my fucking knees
Everybody's dying just to get the disease

I'm not surprised at all and really, why should I be?
See nothing wrong
See nothing wrong
I'm so sick and tired of all these pictures of me
Completely wrong
Totally wrong
I'm not surprised at all and really, why should I be?
See nothing wrong
See nothing wrong
I'm so sick and tired of all these pictures of me
Oh everybody's dying just to get the disease
Everybody's dying just to get the disease
Everybody's dying just to get the disease

Thanks to Elliott Smith for these lyrics.

Can't Give

Wake Up and lift your head

Listen to the words they said

But I don't understand

Yet it's all in my hand

Freedom in Isolation

Alone I'm calm 

Free to be

Can't express

Engaged in excess, once

Lights on but dimmed

Safety in a dark mind

Freedom 

Eddie Vedder - Thank You

Another entry from my inspiration in life, Eddie Vedder. I do this because Ed always references the passion of his fans. 

I promise this to be my last lifted entry from EV though I am sure the words I write will at times come out as they are buried in my soul.

Pearl Jam‘s Eddie Vedder has always had a special place in his heart for the Ramones, and the musician continued to honor that fondness by visiting the Ramones Museum in Berlin this past week.

According to the museum’s Facebook page, Vedder and his guitar tech Rick Weinman spent a few hours at the museum, reminiscing about Vedder’s close friend Johnny Ramone and sharing stories for those in attendance.

Museum officials stated, “We’d like to thank Eddie, Rick and all Pearl Jam fans to be the coolest, nicest and most loyal people we ever met. We’re impressed by your passion, excitement and true love for music. We know some of you traveled from far away places to see Pearl Jam perform and we here at Ramones Museum miss you already.”

Before exiting the establishment, Vedder left behind a letter which read: “Long live the Ramones … the wave that is all breaking all the time – and to my good friend Johnny, how I miss you … Everyday and forever … Wish you were here … Then again, you are.”

Vedder gave the tribute speech for the Ramones when the band went into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, and he would also join the group Zeke for a cover of ‘I Believe in Miracles’ for the ‘We’re a Happy Family’ Ramones tribute compilation.

Falsely Awake

My unconscious though is alive 


For the first time in years 


Deep desire or wanting to aspire


It's been locked away 


A new journey has begun


Why haven't you been with me all along?